Ready to Rock

Sam was sick this week. His fever started on Saturday night and lasted until Wednesday morning. He was puny and coughy and SUPER grumpy. But he got lots of snuggles, warm bubble baths, trips to the doctor, and medicine. When his asthma acted up so badly that he couldn't catch his breath and started gagging and eventually threw up all over his bed, we were there to clean him and his bed up, give him water and his inhaler and tuck him back into bed.

So, why am I telling you all of these gross things??...

Well, one point during this week when he was burning up and sitting in my lap, I had a moment when I thought "our other sweet boy... (side note: have I mentioned I'm pretty sure God has showed me a little boy in our future?) could be getting colds, or bronchiolitis, or a stomach bug, or what have you. And who cleans him up? Who rocks him when he has a fever? Who takes him to the doctor? Does he HAVE a doctor to go to? Does he go to sleep by himself and wake up by himself?"

My heart ached for him (or her....only God knows) and where ever he may be. I don't know this child's plight in life. I don't know who's care he is under right now, if any. But, I do know it made me extremely eager to bring him home. So we could change his sheets and give him medicine when he needs it. And hold him in our laps, rock him and give him comfort. Man, I ache for that as much for him as I do for myself. Although my arms are very busy right now, there are times they just feel....well, empty. Something is missing. Someone. I am eager for them to be filled. With a healthy child, or a sick and puny one. Just one that needs a mama to love him.

If you are wondering where exactly we are in the process.....
We are days away from our home study being submitted and approved. Our social worker is finishing it up. Then, immigration approval/finger prints. Then, our referral for our child. Then dossier is submitted to Uganda. Then court date set. Then travel. THEN....we can bring him (or her) home. And rock. And snuggle. (by the way....by nature I am not a very "snuggly" person per say. So if this makes you want to roll your eyes and even become a little nauseous, I understand and in most cases would be right along side you. But it is what it is. Snuggle. There..I said it again.)


I found this video today about a book that was written for adopted children and adopted children's siblings. It looks adorable and hits home for this mama this week. It's already been ordered and I can't wait to get it....